Saturday, October 31, 2009

Ron Wolfson

wow
just when I thought I couldn't understand
more about myself
or my family

well
really not
but
when I felt
full
of all the happenings

along comes a rabbi
that we bring to our temple
to discuss
welcoming
you see
I am the membership chair
and I feel I have done a bad job of that too
oh
just add it to the list
just another thing
that I have not been good at

but
this Ron Wolfson
I listened to him
at friday night services
talk about
regrets
and forgiving
and family

I was in awe
I am hurting so much inside
I felt he could see it

I sat next to him at dinner
he spoke about his family
about his loss
about his kids
and wife
and more

he seems so happy
how can he be
he lost a child
I can't imagine

today
I was lucky enough to sit next to him
at saturday morning services
my favorite services at our temple
emotional
small
joyful
engaged
everyone singing
and making the chapel
a magical place

we got to talk about our feelings
our real feelings
not just want we display
when someone asks
"how are you"?

I spoke about
my family situation
and he made me feel strong
reminded me
how I was doing right
by all my children
saving them
from the difficult situations

I felt it was
meant to be
me sitting next to this
great man
and
he was the one
reminding me
what a great mom
I can be